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Age: 19
Status: Single __112210.
Location: New York City
Job: iSell Korean Circle Lenses; otherwise unemployed
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Whatever.
Things bother me, but whatever.
If I say they don't bother me, then it's just whatever.
Everyday, I get a little more self-concious because of you GUYS - and then y'all like to wonder where I get my insecurities from. That's a little something you should ask yourselves.

: what u so insecure about?
: i mean like it shouldnt happen to pretty girl like u
: =p

Really now, because obviously this kind of "pretty" isn't good or pretty enough, because my insecurity happens to increase every-fucking-day, and if not, every-fucking-time I'm with you guys, regardless of which "group" it is, or which GUYS y'all are. It's like everywhere I turn, everywhere I go, I hear some shit about what another girl looks like, what her bod is like. It's not jealousy, there's nothing to be jealous of really - it's just freaking irritating.

It's like, alright, if that's what you're into, if she (or they) is all that you want, then by all means. Please, just go. Just leave. Just.. just.. JUST SHUT THE FUCK UP. I don't need to hear that shit. Don't give me that "It's normal for guys" or "It's a guy thing" bullshit!!!! Sick of that shit too. It's like shit, fucking have a little respect. I have feelings too. I don't fucking do that shit to any of you. How the fuck would y'all feel if every-fucking-time I was there, I pointed out all the guys that are cute and spaz twenty million ways about them?

I mean like fuck yo, I'm sorry I don't look like them - but this is who I am, what I'll look like, so either deal with it or don't. But don't say all that shit in my face, or to my face. That shit makes me so fucking self-concious - then you bitches want to wonder why I think certain things about myself (i.e. fat, ugly, etc). So like wow. When we look to the root of it, who's fault is it really?

Maybe it's mine - 'cause I'm not supposed to take the shit y'all say seriously nor personally, right? It's funny -- I feel like I have so much to say, but the words won't come out 'cause I'm just so $#%$&^%$& of it.

So thanks.
THANK YOU for continuing to add on to the insecurities you don't want to deal with.
I have a cellphone.
And I have that cellphone for certain reasons.
BUT -- those reasons do NOT include to get annoyed by calls from unknown people!

Alright, my buddylist is freaking PRIVATE, meaning FRIENDS EXCLUSIVE - and the only way that a person would get my number is if I put it in my away message when I'm out (or if you're only of those losers who take people's numbers from other people's phones because you think you're friends) - SO OBVIOUSLY... the unknown caller MUST be someone I know and/or someone I'm friends with. Jeez, I'm not that stupid; gotta give me a little credit, shit.

It's been going on for like 2 or 3 days, and I don't even care why you're freaking calling. JUST STOP DOING IT, OR FREAKING SAY SOMETHING WHEN YOU CALL. If you're trying to annoy me, well, you got it. If you're trying to prank me, LOL, yea that shit doesn't work on me -- I'll just go along with it. But none of that bullshit where y'all is like "I just wanna hear your voice." Uh yea.. no, not going to cut it. Especially if you're just going to keep me on the phone for like 30 seconds without saying anything, with ME answering with a simple "Hello?" Shit son, the only reason I even answer is because there's always that slight chance that a FRIEND needs help with something or .. something of that nature.

It's almost like, ARE YOU THAT BORED? Or.. ARE YOU THAT DESPERATE? Or.. ARE YOU THAT MUCH OF A LOSER? Or.. just WOW!!! It kinda, JUST KINDA, annoys the shit out of me!!! If you're going to call me with an unknown number, you might as well just not call me at all, because I have pre-conceptions about what that situation is going to be like already -- I'm just not going to be in a jolly state of mind when I answer. It's not like you're scaring me or anything... And shit, if you're going to pull that bullshit about hearing my voice, JUST FUCKING TALK TO ME THEN -- by pulling this retarded shit off, you're just ticking me off. It's not like I'm NOT going to talk to you. JEEEEEZ. No conceit.

I call people with unknown sometimes.
First call is purposely.
Every call after that is accidental - I forget to switch it back.
But either way, I STILL TALK AND TELL THEM WHO I AM! Not just leaving the other person on the line dumbfounded about what to do - wait or hang up - within the awkward silence.
AND, especially since you[s] call AT THE WRONG TIMES.
What if I was already sleeping!? I'd wake up, just to answer the phone -- again, for the slight chance that a friend might be in need -- BUT IF IT'S YOU, SILENT ON THE PHONE, I'D BE PRETTY PISSED OFF. As if I'm not sleep-deprived enough, tch.

Bottom line - JUST. FREAKING. TALK. WHEN. YOU. CALL. ME. GOSH. What the fuck can I do to you over the fucking phone?!?! JEEZ. Grow some balls.~!@#$%^!!!!!!
Nonononono, I don't think, I know I really like my boyfriend.
Why I'm writing this blog, I don't really know. It's not to ask for forgiveness, nor to tell the world my life story. I just felt like it. I thought it was time for a little self reflection and a way to express my thoughts and feelings.

There was a recent period of time when I questioned my feelings for him, and he questioned my feelings too, but I've come to realize that I really do like him, and that he's the one I want to be with now. Otherwise, I wouldn't have been continuously overthinking about what could have been. Us being broken up was a reality that I couldn't face yet - something I was not ready for. Back then, when I ended a relationship, I was always like, Yea yea, forget it. Whatever, not that important. So over it. This time, it was different - I had a heart full of regret and remorse. I thought I could handle it, that it'd be on me if I regretted. In the end, I did regret, a lot. Obviously, I wouldn't have been able to handle it, would've been pretty fractured, if not broken. Yet at the same time, it would have been all my fault.

He might not be "The One," but he might be. I might not marry him, but I might. The chances for the latter happening in both cases are pretty slim; we're both still young, but I'm glad that we're taking a second try at finding out whether the latter will hold true. Maybe in the end we won't work out, but when it happened, it wasn't the right time for it to have been over. We both weren't ready for it to happen.

Yea, I still don't have any reasons for the way I feel - and I'm sorry that's not a good response for some of you - but it's just a feeling. I don't think I need a reason to like him, or to like anything or anyone else at all, I simply just do. There are definitely times where he does things or says things that break me apart and makes me not like him to a certain extent, but in the end, I still like him. Hopefully, he doesn't take that to his advantage, of course, but if you really want reasons -- Maybe it's the soft and caring way he looks at me, maybe it's the way he holds my hand, maybe it's the way his arm drapes around my shoulders, maybe it's the way he kisses my cheek so suddenly that catches me by surprise, maybe it's the way he shuts me up with a kiss, maybe it's the way he hugs me and tells me he never wants to let go, maybe it's the way he cares, but never really shows it, maybe it's the way he tells me he doesn't care, but really does, maybe it's the way he wipes away my tears when he sees them, maybe it's the way he never intentionally tries to hurt me but when he does, he never knows because I don't let him know, maybe it's the way I can tell he probably won't hurt me, maybe it's the way he tries to make things work for the both of us, maybe it's the way he indirectly influences the person I was, I am and will be, or maybe.. it's none of these reasons at all and it's just for the fact that he's .. him, or maybe.. I just still don't have reasons.

080308♥i missed you.
I always let the little things that you said and did that didn't matter get to me, which is why I was always so insecure. It's about time that I trusted you and the way you feel for me, that you won't do something inappropriate behind my back, or something that could shatter the trust I've decided to put in you. Communication: this is something else I need to do - I kept my thoughts to myself in order to protect the well-being of the relationship, but clearly, it almost broke it too, so I've decided to talk about what I feel and think AT the time of feeling and thinking, so there won't be any more misunderstandings. Finally, though it would practically have no meaning, and would do nothing, I'm sorry for almost ruining something that was perfectly fine. I'm sorry.

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Like Mandy said in her blog, I didn't post this so that people can judge or criticize me, or to comment on it. Just read and whatever you read, if it's so important to you, keep it within you and discuss with others if you wish. But I'm sure you have better things to do with your lives than to talk about mine. Hopefully. Don't ruin my happiness.
All I've been hearing lately is "Everything has its reasons," "Everything happens for a reason," "There's a reason for everything," "Fate decides," stuff like that. It kinda frustrates me. Of course things happen for a reason - we make the decisions, not because it was "meant" to happen. Argh, I'm not even going to bother typing out my argument about this again LOL.

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