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.. So I found your tumblr - even though I don't have one, I can still see yours.

Congrats on your poker dealer job! I'm really excited, and happy, for you.

How is that working out for you, actually?

Funny thing is, I've contemplated talking to you again too, but it definitely would be mad awkward... I'm shaking so hard right now; not sure if it's because I'm cold, or because I just read your tumblr.. or both?!

Reading your posts, it seems like you gradually got happier and happier.

But then you have your sudden snap-backs...

Honestly, I wish I had no memories of you either... no hurt intended.

I also think I saw you crossing the street the other day...

I hope you are too, really, and that you've forgotten me already.

I want to be an acquaintance some day, maybe a good friend.

I always wonder how you are, and what you may be doing.

I don't want to feel guilty for being happy with what I'm doing and who I'm with.

I still think about how you've hurt me, and the pain still resides in my heart.

I cry my eyes out, and my heart always has this sharp pain.

It's what you had said to me, and how our lives played out.

Even still, I'm still happy with where I am in life right now, so I hope you are too.

To tell you the truth, I had a dream about you the other night.

You and I were hanging out with some people, not sure who, could've been your family, since your mom was there, or it could've been our friends, and after we were finished with our day, everyone headed home. I was walking in the front with someone, as I normally do in real life, and you were behind, walking with a girl. I saw her face, but I didn't recognize her, obviously someone new you've met. You were having a conversation with her, and you cared that she would get home safely, so you didn't want her to take the train home. She said it would be alright for her to take the train home by herself, yet you still said, "It's okay, just cab it - I got it." Knowing me, in the dream, I said out loud, "You never 'cabbed' it for me!" and walked away pretty upset. I woke up on the verge of tears, but I didn't cry. Maybe it's because I know I'm happy now, and I don't need to live in the past, or I'm sad, but not sad enough to cry.

This dream obviously shows that I'm still upset with you and how our relationship had turned out, and therefore, us being together again won't happen.

I hope that you're happy, and alright, and that things are going your way.

I hear you've been pokering again; I'm still watching... good luck.

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Dear the friendliest person I knew for only one day,

Ha, this would be ALL the people I met at Bryant Park, well mostly 'cause some are just haters LOLS. All the ones who are my friends now, they accepted me from day one, and talked to me as if I had always been a friend. You guys are awesome; you guys make me forget all the unhappy memories I have, and at the same time, creating new happy memories for me.

I love you guys!

Love,

Sharon