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Wednesday, October 13, 2010,8:04 PM
Day 3 : Your Parents
Just imagine for a little while, that the world around you was encased, just like a snowglobe is, and everything works perfectly; the air you need to breathe, the nutrients you need for your strength, the remedies needed for your sicknesses all the necessities for survival; and suddenly, the glass of the snowglobe breaks. How do you breathe then? How do you stay strong then? How do you reverse the pains and diseases then? How do you hold onto your life then? Who do you turn to when all the world has fallen, when everything stable around you has crumbled, when what you thought you could handle became out of your control? Everything was going great, I thought, but then suddenly all the walls that were built to shelter, all the structure that was there to hold everything up, just everything, falls. I broke. So, who do I turn to? Who can I turn to? ---------- Dear parents, I hate you. I hate you for everything. I hate you for everything that I am. I hate you for leaving. I hate you for leaving me in this hellhole, but don't think I wanted to go with you either. I hate you for trusting that I can deal with this family. I hate you .. I just hate you .. Although I'll never quite admit it, I think deep down, I want you to be here. To help this shit of a home. To guide me. Where would I have been, if you were here? But I'm not even your daughter, right? I hate you for being here. I hate you for not doing anything about this hellhole, but don't think I need you to. I hate you for EVERYTHING. I hate you for being a complete hypocrite. I hate you for making me independent, and now not trusting me. I just hate you too. Deep down, I wish I was never born. And I wasn't the accident. I don't want to live like this. Imagine where I would've been if I worked harder to get out. I hate both of you. I think I would've liked it better if you just placed me in another state to be raised by someone else when I was young. I can't deal with this bullshit anymore. Love, Sharon
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