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Why? I spent $152.48 on make up products yesterday.

And why in the world did I do that?

I don't really have a clue - I know I just really wanted the Urban Decay 24/7 15th year anniversary set. FAIL - I love the colors though; it's like colored pencils for your face! ♥

... And I bought mascara and a new silver eyeliner and a curler.

Hopefully they "work," because I have an obsession with long eyelashes LOL.

But aside from disappointment, I also feel excitement - it's like I'm embarking on a new phase in my life LOL. But I'm also disappointed in myself because I never thought I'd be one to spend so much on make up - but I guess when it comes to stuff like this, you can't really be cheap or you'll ruin your skin quicker ):

But yeh, just wanted to share that;

I also still want more liners, but from the tokidoki collection;

CLICK ME :

- Carina

- Unicorno

- Savana

- Marrone

- Diamante

Each costs $14, so that would come out to 14x5, which would be $70+tax! Crazyyy.

If I had to pick 3 though, these would be my top picks : Unicorno, Savana, & Diamante.

Then would come the other 2 : Carina, Marrone.

ANYWAYS ...

So you read my blog now? Big deal. If you read it, keep it to yourself - I don't wanna know that you been stalkin' up my blog. When it mattered to me that you read my blog, you never bothered to read it, even when I told you to read it; so why bother caring what's written in my blog now? Whatever - I guess since I publicized this blog, anyone is welcome to read it; but I'm still not looking for your approval or anything.

Life is kinda borderline suckish... LOL. I keep saying that I'm having mad fun right now, but I don't know how true that is. Ice skating is pretty fun, but I do have to admit that there are times when I get frustrated and annoyed at idiotic skaters. Like, how do you skate mad fast but don't know how to stop? If you can't stop, THEN DON'T SKATE THAT FAST. Y'all are lucky I'm wack at skating or I'll be on your ass 24/7 until you fucking leave the rink. I'm trying mad hard to get better; LOL okay I lied. I'm not trying too hard - I'm still afraid to fall (ahaha, the irony; you get it, you get it?). I've been trying the cross-over, but I just can't seem to do right over left if my life depended on it, and left over right is still unnaturally done. I guess the only thing I can be proud of is that I can skate a bit faster?

BUT seeing as I've been converted to hockey skates, I have to relearn how to skate ): I'm too used to the blades on the front and the back LOL. Argh fail.

I guess I also have to thank Jeffie & Joe for always continuously asking me to go skating until I actually went a few times. As I was telling Jeffie, I feel like I started skating because of them, yet I don't exactly go with or for them anymore, but rather for new friends. Thanks to skating, I've made a new group of friends who are pretty frickin' real. Awesome! Haha, it's kinda cool 'cause they're down for anything, anytime, even though we're not too close yet :x And to top it off, everyone is mad nice (at skating, AND personality-wise)! kdljghldsh SPAZZZZ LOL.

I mean, don't get me wrong, Chinatown Crew was my homies and all, but really? I feel like I was just there, not really a part of anything - even though I was friends with almost everyone beforehand, I became "just" the girlfriend, which I fuckin' hated. Now, things are different, but no one is really down to do anything, which is disgustingly boring. I have to say I miss you guys, but it's really not a biggie if I don't chill with y'all anymore - I guess this is a part of growing up and moving on from things that you don't belong with. Because while there are the selected few that I "trust" and confide in, I feel like everyone is so goddamn plastic for no reason - being one way in my face, but another behind my back.

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Dear someone from my childhood,

Damn, I'm almost 20. Who do I want to speak about? Ah, how about you - I remember that day in the 5th grade that I showed you one of my dresses and you wanted to try it on so that you could decide whether you wanted to buy one for yourself or not. So after school, I went home to get the dress, and I brought it over to your house for you to try it on. Then you had me wear it. Then what did you say to me? You said that the dress looked better on you, because it would look nicer on someone with a bigger chest. LOL. Bitch, we were in the 5th grade; what chest could either of us possibly have had? PLUS the fact that we're ASIAN. Holy shit. Lmao, I will never forget how conceited and egocentric you are. I will never forget the shit you've said to me, the shit you've said about me. It's almost been 13 years that I've known you, and you haven't changed one bit, and I still don't like you - shit is, I still have to see you around.

Love,

Sharon