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I still get jealous when I see that you've been speaking to another girl, or when a girl has been interacting on your Facebook. But I guess it's great that you are - I'm replaceable, just like any other girl, so you really shouldn't dwell on what used to be. However, just because she can replace me, that doesn't mean that she can replace what we had. Because as much as I negate our relationship, I believed so badly that we had something real. Don't feel too bad, because honestly, I'm talking to guys too :D But that shouldn't be anything new to you.

I have to admit that I don't stalk your Facebook that often; today was the first time since my last blog post (but then again, I don't really have much time to dedicate to stalking since I've been trying to use my time to forget). But damn, I still suck at this - I think as I keep thinking that I miss you less, or that I love you any less, there's a small part of me that misses and loves you more. Just a small part, don't get gassed up. I do wonder how it would be like to see you - would it be awkward? Would my heart flip? Would I start crying? Would I be angry? Sad? Hurt? I hope you're doing okay.

Here, let me share a little something with you : "An Ideal Man"

I really didn't ask for that much, and even though SHE said it was made for jokes, she also did say that she meant some of the things she said. It kinda looks like she meant ALL of the things she said though... And I think that it applies to me. I'm not trying to prove anything, just saying. So watch it; she's definitely not bad to look at or listen to (:

For those who don't want to sit through the whole video, and for you -

1. Don't lie - I told you this before; you always said, "If I told you, you would've gotten mad." But like she said, if you woulda just told me in the beginning, I woulda been upset a little, but now that I found out, I'm more upset. No excuses! Maybe this is why I didn't exactly trust you.....

2. Spoil us - I never asked for any presents, but it would've been nice, because it woulda "made me feel important."

3. Take us out and show us to your friends - Ha, you kinda sorta did this, except you never really did it? Like I said, I never meant PDA, but c'mon! -_-

4. Text or call back - SERIOUSLY. Like she said, "If you were really busy, just say -BRB- and that takes 2 seconds. When you don't text back, it makes it suspicious. Texting and calling is a lot!"

5. Don't flirt with other girls - self-explanatory. When you stop flirting with other girls, it makes us feel important (:

6. Late night calls - I don't like phones, but I've told you that I looooooooove late night calls, because it's like you're willing to stay up.

I'ma end this with : If I'm not one of your top priorities, then forget it, because I don't want to just be one of your options.

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Dear the last person that you kissed,

I've done a lot of kissing lately (; ON THE CHEEKS ♥ Been feeling very loved, and loving. But anyway, hmmm. What do I even need to say about this? LOL. Nothing.

Love,

Sharon